Because I Was a Failure

"I've failed you. I know I couldn't make you proud, mom and dad. I failed that goddamn exam. It's my fault. Because I didn't try hard enough. I'm sorry. I made everyone disappointed. I made my Gods (father & mother) cry. The tear from your eye, it's telling me that I've let you down. I'm sorry. There is nothing I can say instead of 'sorry.'  

"I'm truly sorry for being a terrible kid. I know I am not perfect. I ain't doing any good to make you proud. I ain't great like the daughter of Uncle Thy. I ain't good at all. I am bad. And I let you down. I'm sorry, mom. I wish I could repaint my picture so that nobody would look down on our family. I wish I could be a little smarter. I wish I could be a little nicer. I wish I could be everything you need me to be. I wish. But I am not what I am wishing for. I'm sorry, mom."