I am acting.

I play lots of roles.

And it already looks like ... i live into more parallel worlds ... feeling so often that actually ... i am sort of a super human.

Of course ... everything i am talking about ... it's just illusory.

Meanwhile ... i keep writing.

Aha ... essays without a real sense ... analysing and defining my so called real life ... claiming i want to redefine everything ... but of course ... it's all a lie.

I just pretend.

I act ... and i react.

Then ... again ... i react.

I keep repeating that it's all an illusion ... but ...

So ... my self therapy sessions ... which i have in front of the public ... are just ... another way of fooling around.

And ... still ... i continue doing it.

I go deeper into my soul.

I try to penetrate myself.

I try to go ... beyond the masks.

I try to understand ... the nonsense.

But ....

So ... i am allowing myself to reveal you ... one more time ... this non-ending show of the absurd.

My own life.

You'll enjoy it ... looking like ... sort of a funny stand up

comedy.

Having ... only one real purpose.

To disturb you.