2018-11-23
Forgiveness is two way.
I find the pace slow but then I do not change easily and so that is fair enough.
When you are wronged it is caused by something about you.
A nephew of mine (10 years old) had Muscular Dystrophy and he was mocked by other children who were not wheelchair bound.
He did nothing wrong and he was shamed.
I have come accross other people shamed in other ways and it is hard for them to overcome it.
As Rob says it is only in the real. The here and now that you can grow spiritually.
The problem with shame is that you need to forgive yourself for something you have not done.
The only way to get there is to fully understand why you have been shamed.
So forgiveness entails putting yourself in their shoes and seeing their cowardice.
It's not you it's me.
If I was not the way I am we could be friends.
If I could walk and run I could come with you.
You hate me because I can't.
Guess what?
I hate me too.
I am angry.
I hurt.
Actually I hurt all the time.
I stop feeling it because it's always there.
You hate me because I can never escape that,
I hate it too.
But then I think about what I have.
I know suffering.
It has become my friend.
I know being left behind.
That is my friend.
You do not have these friends.
You can run away and escape.
I understand that I am blocking you way to that empty world of never ending.
It makes you angry.
It is not me you are angry with but that part in your self that is running away from pain.
In the end you must accept it and then you can come back and be my friend.